Johnny Depp is reflecting on the relationship that changed the course of his life - both professionally and personally.In a new interview with The Times, the "Pirates of the Caribbean" actor - whose marriage to Amber Heard was highly publicized following their 2017 divorce - opened up about the domestic abuse allegations that were made against him and explained why he was determined to "fight to the bitter f---ing end" to clear his name."Look, it had gone far enough," said Depp, who claimed he was libeled by Heard when she wrote an op-ed piece describing herself as a "public figure representing domestic abuse" in 2018. "I knew Id have to semi-eviscerate myself."JOHNNY DEPP AND AMBER HEARD CHART NEW LIVES THREE YEARS AFTER COURTROOM DRAMADepp's lawyers said he was defamed by the article even though it never mentioned his name because, they argued, it referenced abuse allegations Heard had made against Depp during divorce proceedings.A high-profile trial ensued in 2022 in which the exes accused each other of physical and verbal abuse."Ill tell you what hurts," Depp said about the aftermath of Heard's allegations. "There are people, and Im thinking of three, who did me dirty. Those people were at my kids parties. Throwing them in the air. And, look, I understand people who could not stand up [for me], because the most frightening thing to them was making the right choice. I was pre-MeToo. I was like a crash test dummy for MeToo. It was before Harvey Weinstein. And I sponged it, took it all in. And so I wanted from the hundreds of people Ive met in that industry to see who was playing it safe. Better go woke!"LIKE WHAT YOURE READING? CLICK HERE FOR MORE ENTERTAINMENT NEWS"I have no regrets about anything because, truly, what can we do about last weeks dinner? Not a f---ing thing," he added.On the topic of his ex-wife's claims against him, Depp said, "Everyone was saying, Itll go away!' But I cant trust that. What will go away? The fiction pawned around the f---ing globe? No it wont. If I dont try to represent the truth it will be like Ive actually committed the acts I am accused of. And my kids will have to live with it. Their kids. Kids that Ive met in hospitals. So the night before the trial in Virginia, I didnt feel nervous. If you dont have to memorise lines, if youre just speaking the truth? Roll the dice."The jury awarded Depp $10 million in damages but also awarded $2 million to Heard. Depps camp said the deal includes a $1 million payment from her to him to settle all financial claims.The couple, who wed in 2015, separated in 2016. Less than a week after filing for divorce, Heard filed a domestic restraining order against her husband on grounds of domestic abuse charges, People reported.Just one day ahead of their scheduled restraining order hearing, they reached a $7 million settlement in their divorce, the outlet reported. Their divorce was finalized in 2017.Depp, who said that Hollywood executives "stopped calling" amid the scandal, which he referred to as a "soap opera" that was "literally televised," has since worked on multiple projects.CLICK HERE TO SIGN UP FOR THE ENTERTAINMENT NEWSLETTER"I keep wondering about the word comeback because I didnt go anywhere, matter of fact I live 45 minutes away," Depp said in May 2023 at the Cannes Film Festival while promoting his film "Day Drinker" with Penelope Cruz. "Maybe people stopped calling out of whatever their fear was at the time."WATCH: AMBER HEARD SPEAKS OUT AFTER COURT BATTLE WITH JOHNNY DEPP: SHE'S REPUBLISHING, SAYS NANCY GRACEHe added, "But no, I didnt go nowhere. Ive been sitting around, so comeback is sort of like, you know, its almost like Im gonna come out and do a tap dance."Despite his return to Hollywood, Depp told The Times he prefers to stay out of the spotlight."Well, to this day I just rarely go out," he said. "If friends invite me out for Mexican, I say, Dude, thats sweet of you, but I will ruin your night. My presence will bring attention and, Jesus, I have had almost 40 years of fame, but Im still not used to it. And Im glad Im not.""I can be isolated and happier than a clam," he added. "But I dont get out much. Im stuck with my thoughts; just thinking, writing or watching weird s--- on YouTube. It cant be healthy."Fox News Digital's Stephanie Nolasco contributed to this post.